**This is the remaining portion of the letter I wrote to the judge...once again all privacy is protected...and I am also going to state for the record I do not know if I even wrote this and sent it...but I added it to get a substantial sight on what went on then!**

1) Zachary I saw last on the 2nd of January and if we wait until February 11, 2003 that is about a month and a half.  I technically am supposed to get visits every two weeks and it so far does not look as if that is going to happen due to the fact and desire of ***** *****.

2) Keghan I last saw on the 7th of January and if we wait until February 11, 2003 that makes him a little over a month and Keghan to me is the most effected by this whole situation because he is old enough to understand.  He is also beginning to miss his brother and sisters more and more and is missing a lot of time with them.  This is not a matter of Ms. ***** (ME) not getting what she wants but it is not fair to the children to not see each other.

3) Lily I saw last on the 13th of January and if we wait until February 11, 2003 that would make about a month for her.  She is the one that I feel is going to forget things.  She is a small baby and it might be pretty hard to remember me as it is with the simple fact I do not see her enough but her brothers and her sister she is seeing very little at all and she is not going to know them all.  I voiced my complaint with the Guardian ad Litem and he told me he could very well understand where I was coming from.

4) And lastly Haven which the last time I saw her was on the 28th of October and before that the first of July (2002).  We miss her greatly and we see her even less then we do the rest of the kids.  Which the next part addresses her.  In 7 months time I have seen my daughter two times.  And then she is not returning on the next court date.  I think that was very inconsiderate of her father to not think of her feelings.

I have been told and I always thought that the goal is to return the child to the mother and to keep families together.  In the process people are being told things to turn against me, my family is falling apart, my kids are falling apart and it seems my kids are being driven more away then brought together.

Then there is the court hearing with Mr. **** **** on February 13, 2003.  I have many issues that are in regards to **** **** and his wife **** ****.  First off they tell my daughter things that they should not be telling her.  It seems as if people (the people in which I just mentioned) strive so very hard to turn my daughter against the only family she has ever known.  And took her away from the people that she knew and placed her with people that she has only known since July 1st, 2002.  My daughter was first of all lied to when her father told her that him and ***** were taking her to McDonalds and then drove all the way to Maine.  This whole time she is thinking that she is going to McDonalds with her daddy and in return she is sitting in a car for multiple hours for the trip up to Maine.  When she finally got a chance to speak to us she was awfully upset and wanted to see namely "her mommy", "her grandmommy", "her papa", "her Keghan Brother", "her Zachary brother" and "her baby Lily".  It broke my heart to hear her so upset about the situation.  She wanted to come home.  Then as time went on it seemed as if **** and **** **** were beginning to turn my daughter against me.  We were talking to her twice a week individually (my dad, stepmother and I).  Two times a week my dad and stepmother would call her and then two times a week I would call her.  Everytime my parents and I would talk to hershe would make comments like about how much she wanted to come home and continued to ask if we would come up there and see her.  When the court hearing for Haven got closer (October 28th, 2002) my dad went and filed a petition in hopes of being able to bring my daughter back down from Maine so she could be among the family that actually had shown an interest in her before as well as that she had grown up with and grown to love very very much.  Not only was she not returned but my dad's Petition was NEVER seen or heard.  At the same court hearing the Guardian Ad Litem also interrogated my four year old with her father instead of her father and I or even a mutual mediator.  It was also requested that my daughter not be brought down on the next court hearing on February 11, 2003.  Now at the court hearing we were only allowed an hour of visitation supervised by her stepmother and her father prior to the court hearing.  When that visitation was over she got upset and told my parents and I she did not want us to leave her.  Once going into court I spoke with you and asked about visitation rights with my daughter.  I was told it would be okay on a compromise with the father and I.  When walking out of the court room Mr. **** looked at me and said "Jenni you have 45 minutes."  There was no compromise and we did not even get to do the little bit of visiting we had with her alone.  There were three workers, two attorneys and Mr. and Mrs. **** present.  While we had a very short time to visit with my child **** **** decided that she was going to make a comment to Mr. and Mrs. **** that was as follows: "Watch Ms. **** because she tends to say things to her children that she should not be saying!"  Now first of all I feel that was very unprofessional and unethical.  Not to mention it was a custody battle therefore the only people that I understand have been there other than myself, my parents and Mr. and Mrs. **** was the Guardian Ad Litem.  I understand that **** **** might have also been required to be there but not the multiple workers present due to the fact that they had no reference to the case.  And I hope to get to that point and to be able to address that later on in this letter.  So as I see it (and if I am wrong please correct me) I should still be allowed agreeable and reasonable visitation of my child.  She left on July 1, 2002 and the first time I saw her was on October 28th, 2002.  For only one hour and 45 minutes and then returned to Maine and not coming to the February hearing.  Is that looking out for the best interests of my daughter?  It seems to me that in the long run it is only going to hurt her more then what she was or will ever be if returned home to me or even to her grandfather!  Then there are a few things I would like to address with her residing with her father.